"NoThinG is LIFE ; LIFE is BlAnK"

its already 12am++ now...
tmr 8am geh class...
i havent finish study my HO...
mid term test....
half way of chapter 4...
i wondering why....
why i cant continue to read it d...
i duno why...
my mood sudenly bcm bad...
veyr down...
maybe bcoz very busy ba...
assignment are coming all in one shot..
continiously for 3 weeks...
and presentation plus mid term test...
i currently can say done most of the assignment...
but i fel uncomfortable when see-ing other ppl busying...
fel wanna help but cant do anyting...
and everyday will got ppl boh mood in class...
fighting lar, boh song teacher lar,
takda electric curent lar, hilang pendrive lar,
asignment duno how lar, homework didnt do lar...
wad oso got...
i not happy oso not dare to show on my face...>.<
havent done revision...
msn line got problem...
and wondering the feeling i hav izit jealous...
summore flu and fever...
HAIZ...

perhaps...
i should learn like others...
u're right...
i think too much...(not ur personal message lar)
it really make me fel bad...
i lost something very important in my life...
and this make me fel like i have nothing...
alone even with frens...
i should tel u...
or mayb not...
its imposible to happen...
all is not the same...
BLUFF myself tat miracle will happen...
its useless...
miracle wont happen to gud ppl oso...
should make miracle...not to wait miracle happen...
tats all i noe...
something that wont happen,
it wont happen no matter wad u do...
something that is not urs,
it wont be urs no matter how u try...
something that u lost,
it wont be found back anymore even u use google search...
i cant be like tat anymore...
and not now!
i should think clearly wad im doing now...
should not be regret after make decision...





im very tired of all this...
life meaning-less...
i need strength...
..........................................
its all a dream...
i should forget the past...
try to make myself happy...
looking other frens can be happy,
then only i can feel the happiness of joy...
i wan to be a laughter too...
i duno why...
i jus wan to make u happy...
talk more...
but i noe...u closer with them...
aiks...suan le...
fel like wanna eat yong tau fu...>.<
after sleep hope i get my mood back...
wishing to get wad i missing...
i telling myself...
tmr will be a good day...
BE STRONGER in order to PROTECT MY HEART...
so that it wont broke into PIECES anymore...
i miss my mama...T.T


errrrr....
stop here ba...
continue study d...
tataz...