DIAO!

I'm getting tired of all this..
why am i still doing this?
no matter how well u treat ppl
there's oways nothing she can give u in return
0% u know..
i used to say...
i had done many bad things in my previous life
especially breaking the heart of everyone..
in return..i had to pay back in this life..
i just dunwan u to become like this..
i didnt owned u
why should i treated u so well?
do u ever think about my feelings?
hurt me again and again..
i'm really tired...
so give me a break pls!
leave me alone and perhaps should stay away from me!
i dunwan to fall in love with u anymore..
what is the meaning of friend to u?
using? getting the benefits?
or just treat me as your doll?
don't use my weakness to become ur strength!

i'm fine? 0.o

suddenly though about my blog..
so i drop by a while...
it's 1.40am now...
again...i'm still awake..
can't sleep again..
hmmm...maybe because of stress?
CGPA drop last semester..
fel a bit sad bout it but it's not a big deal..
now is sem 4 d..think should put more effort this time..

just read through some of the past post of my own blog..
thing really changed..
now i get back to the same situation again..
this is the second month i'm in new hse..
not even contact with any of my ex-hsemate..
still the same..i duno wad had happen..=(
as we grow, life getting tougher and tougher..
and we should learn to be strong..
should look forward and not the past..
hope everything will be alright and get through the hard time..

*already 2 month..
honestly, i really...miss you..=(
hope everything is fine on your side, i'll pray for you
all the best and take care of urself, shinky..

对不起

终于狠下心
做了这个决定
对不起
我要离开你了
保重，小雨
我一直都在你心里...

想离去的心

看透了人世间的转变

改的简直不可思议

不明白怎么突然就变成这样了

你的举动让我心淡了

朋友做到这样

我实在想不透

人 总是在困难中学习

这也许是成长的一部分

学到了 朋友不需要多

重要的几个就好

你永远猜不透他们在想什么

对自己好一点

已经不该再做些伤害自己的事了

或许

是时候 离开了

我受够了!

我不是给你忽略的

不理我  我何必自讨苦吃呢

到最后  其实真心的朋友并没有几个

想要去吃而已  都没人陪

想放松自己  走街什么的

一个人都没有要去的

就连死党踢球也没叫我

真的  心淡了...

难道朋友  那么难找吗

阿塞门要帮助时就会找你

平时都不想回复

我是不是愚蠢的  只是给人利用

怎么会这样...

真的  好想哭... =(

5月的第9天

开学第2个星期了
得知有两个assignment在第4个星期
顿时变得忙起来了
这个sem有点好转了
跟其他人有比较多话说了
多了个大姐
还有可爱的小妹

最近听到些不愉快的事
听到你的声音
我都快哭了
每一句安慰你的话
其实都是在伤害我自己
都事隔那么久了
希望你能解决一切
要幸福噢
你也不用担心
我会过得很好

现在的Cgpa已经快到达我的要求了
3。48
这个sem再接再厉吧~

Most Near (最近~)

its the 5 th day of my holidays..

life getting bored..

i think everybody feel the same

that when school time want holiday

and when holiday want go to school..

i had holiday in the whole April month..

Now let's see..

i finished final exam of sem 2 a week ago..

the exam seem to be easy for me

as i like calculation so much..

2 subject this time but i'm not sure that i can score..

so...

talks about recent school life..

i used to be want to stay at college or

hanging out with classmate after finish class..

maybe because i'm alone once i get back to home..

but then..(think about Felicia when typing this word XD)

now i prefer to when back home after class..

i realized that i had better relationship with my housemate

compare to my classmate..

as i said before, the relationship is getting worse..

there was some other purpose to go college last time

like want to chat with friend, want to go movie together,

or want to see certain person..

but now, i found that i have no mood to go college at all..

is it the right option to continue study?

and yet, i still finding the solution..

now i really go to college just for study purpose..

hahaha, what a funny said..

felt that i'm changing the way i am..

time flies.. =(

and, its been a while we didn't have a proper chat..

sms getting lesser and lesser..

sometimes i think this is a good thing..

but i just miss u so much after all..>.<

something bad happening..

Joan's bro is having problem..

although i don't really know what's the problem..

but i know its very serious..

i don't want to ask about it,

and i know you won't tell me..

all i can do is just pray for him to wake up..

God bless..and hope everything will be alright..

back to the holidays..

going back Klang tomorrow..

and i'm going to have a good rest

as i loss 4kg in 2 weeks because of fever..

eat, sleep , play

that's all i can do =)

二月

你好吗？

最近过得不错吧？

工作如何了？

好久没和你聊了。

我知道我不该时常打扰你

不过我真的想你了。

你都不理我了。

现在就连可以关心的

和关心我的人都没了。

在生气我吗？

是否我又超过了界线

让你难做了。

不好意思..

虽然二月比平常少几天

但接下来的日子

应该会很忙吧。

希望可以利用这次的机会

好好努力一番。

第一个学期的成绩

我及格了。

不错下

以后会再接再厉。

逃避的谎

"不好意思，我有事情做，

不能和你去吃了，下次吧~"

这是我本来想说的谎言

打好的信息却删除了

对不起，我不是故意的

只是真的没有勇气去面对

但最后还是回心转意了

想了想

其实

能看着你幸福

就是我的幸福了

（我很高兴你叫我一起去）

"新"大学

好久没写了。

现在的我已经是advance diploma的学生

目前过着第一个学期的假期，

等待着新年~

过了一个学期，还真有点不习惯。

上学也不知怎么了，总是没干劲的。

在这之前，一直期待着新学期的生活，

时候到了，却想念以前了。

写着写着...

我又想你了。

不知现在的你工作如何

没有人陪我熬夜聊天，

我也只能一个人度过这个漫长的假期。=(

事事都不是很顺利。

人缘差了，关系也变了，

考试也不是很理想。

虽然成绩还没出，不过已有心理准备了。

原来没有想象中那么容易读啊。

一度产生放弃的念头，怎么可以呢。

或许这次的大学生活并不是过得那么的好

不过无论如何我都会撑下去。

要有小强精神啊！！！

加油！