i'm back

it's October..omost end of 2013
i'm still a guy that have no job no career
hahaha free like hell
nothing to do at home
everything but got distance learning..==
and the interesting part is
i'm still single! LOL
it's hard eh..to have a relationship..
girl de fren i had a lot...
memang a lot...
but then all is my fren...
i'm still waiting for the one..
nvm la..already wait for so long
continue wait loo
oh ya..
i er...get the frenship back with Juneting
but errr...now we back to own hometown
and have our own life..
no more contact as well...
well..this is life isn't it?
great time i had in UK..
it's been a long long journey..
=)

Life Goes on..

hey blog..long time no see..
guess none of my fren will read about u already eh?
ah haha..it's alright..=)
it's 1st of August 2013..
already gone through more than half year..
and yet im still like doing nothing..
sigh..what bout my future? @@
im kinda lost..currently still at Liverpool, degree for my course
everything goes well..i guess so..
uh...good time hard time, had to live as well
life goes on..
sometimes, i still will like being emo..
especially in the middle of the night like this..
but im trying to be better..hope so..
yeah..same problem..relationship eh?
nobody care..how long should i wait for it to come?
i just wanna someone right there for me..
but i always could not get rid of it..
yeah..im still not good yet..
wrong timing...wrong person...what's more?
T___T oh gosh...
sometimes..i still wondering give up or not..
if i give up, what for i being so stupid for so long..
if not give up, what for i being hurt all the time?
sigh...you're asking which one eh?
hmmm...doesn't matter..
sometime i'll ask myself..
what am i seeking for? why?
she treat u like this, and u still care bout her..
what's the point? no reply, ignore, and not even a care..
izit what i want? i just regret...
i really miss you.. shinky..
but i gave my everything and pray for u to get a happy life with him..
i know u found the love one..just maintain it
and im happy as u're.
atleast...im the one who wait for endless..

Just being hurt

i hate people ignoring me

i don't wanna be the camera man

i want to be in the picture as well

please be good to me

i also have feelings

photos without me and tags as well

am i invisible?

or i'm looking bad to you?

shame to have me in your life?

i'm not a big person with lots of strengths

but i'm a thing called friend

not a rock

or mirror

ignoring question is a problem

ignoring person is a behavior

but then ignoring me is like for sure

now i confuse

what am i to you?

T-Ting

" 自己惹的恶果 就要有本事自己去承受！"

呆在电脑前 看着你写的这些话

心里很难受 又能如何

这意味着

百分百的 不能回头了吗？

我没本事

我承受不了

我只是 不想再失去任何人了..

Life and Live

time flies...
it's 2013 March..
having internship right now..
and..life getting up and down as well..
as the time JuneTing leave me alone,
i had more time to think about myself
and talk to myself..
i'm just sorry that i didnt take care of it..
but life's changed all the time..
i had a good time by myself as well..
i pray everyday, hope that the greatest will bless me
and i'm getting better day by day..
happier and with a brighter smile..
what do i still hope to?
well...a lot...
chances is given every time,
just depends on how u gonna get it thou..=)

i know..there is no turning back again to get back the friendship
with JuneTing
nor my ex-housemate
and also shinky..
relationship aren't that easy to manage..
sometimes letting it go is the best choice
and...
i'd seen through it..=)
just hope that one day, i can get it back..
especially JuneTing..
whenever u need me, i'll ready for ya..
cause u all are my friend forever.